Crappiest blog ever

Twitterpated-mania = erin's life right now. everyone seems to be twitterpated. Even me, granted there are about 5 guys, but that's beside the point. lol I don't even know what to think anymore.....what to say? lol I'm not sure how to deal with anything...basically lets sum up:

Jake - Ok, on choir tour we were like best friends, we hung out, we flirted, we had fun. AND now that we're back... he won't give me the time of day. I should have expected it....but i didn't. Dang. lol Don't get me wrong, I don't like him again, but I definitely wanted him as a friend...well there went that idea. *shoots idea with an AK47*

Jacob - Ok, so. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH is all I have to say about that. Saw his senior picture today... can you say perm-a-grin? oh wow. That boy. Dang.

Randi and Berto - So cute. Unexpected. But definitely cute. lol

Britta and Lurpe - I'm so inlove with this couple I cannot even handle it. Lol they're so cute, and they're just fun to be around. Granted, at times I feel like the 3rd wheel, but I'll deal.

Grant - Texted me again last night. Oh wow. Bring back memories? I just dont even know....

K i'm sorry that this is the crappiest blog ever. but my thoughts are too jumbled to blog. maybe i'll blog later...when i've got everything all figured out.

What happens in Vegas...

So basically i'm sitting here in the holiday in typing to you guys from the business center in vegas. and let me tell you, this trip has been one interesting experience after another. i'm sitting here giggling just thinking about it. so here's how it's been..... on friday we drove to california...now there isn't any boy girl seating so i'm sitting in the seat behind jake and lurpe... basically i spent the first part of the drive tickling their necks....then the three of us watch tokyo drift... :D:D:D:D:D:D huzzah for fast cars. anyways after that lurpe went to sleep and jake and i stayed up and talked until about 3 am...we talked about everything and we really cleared the air between us. we resolved a lot of conflict and everything is good between us now...even though i have black mail on him...bwahahahahahahah. anyways so after we stayed up talking and watching the omen (scariest dang show ever! holy freaking crap its twisted) jake and i fell asleep at about 3 a.m. we arrived at the mcdonalds in cali where we were going to eat breakfast at about 5 am so jake and i went on about 2 hours of sleep each. but it was fun. so after everyone had eaten (except me....cause erin doesnt eat mcdonalds) we got ready basically in the parking lot of mcdonalds and it was hysterically funny now that i think about it. next we drove to disney land.....and what more can i say about that? IT'S DISNEY LAND! lol i love it. we (chaely, jake, lurpe, scott, sean, and forrest) met up with egil and his friend brian and we had a really good time...i dont remember much..other than a haze of tiredness and my knees hurt like ^&@#$*&@()#*$&*()@#$&#$ @*$@#@*(#$&(@*#$& but...yeah it was all good. so its time to go eat...and i'm actually hungry (but i've been up since 4 this time...5 utah time) anyways i'm coming home tonight and i miss you all!
infinite x's and o's
~Jo Cripple Face

L is for the way you look at me

An amazing list of things that I love, to match everyone elses:

• That feeling you get when you start swimming after you haven't swam in a long time.
• That feeling you get after you swim a hard work out.
• That feeling you get after your race.
• The feeling you get when you sing, the one where your voice just pours over the notes.
• The feeling you get when you debate.
• The feeling you get when you're on stage and you get a standing ovation.
• Getting lost in an amazing book
• Watching a good movie
• Summer
• Playing guitar
• Hugs!
• Kisses
• Dancing in the rain
• My friends
• Finishing each others sentences and then saying "get out of my head" lol
• Shooting stars
• Long walks
• Catching up with old friends
• Making new friends
• Writing anything and everything you could ever think
• Cuddling
• Gatorade
• My perfect subway sandwhich
• Eating everything with ranch
• Yelling the "best" insults at britta
• Hearing good things said about me
• People telling me that they believe in me
• Being there when my friends need help
• Cruises
• Scuba
• Water in general....its a calming thing for me
• The feeling of sand in your toes when you're at the beach
• The rush you feel on rollercoasters
• The fact that all guys look amazing in suit ties
• When guys wear a suit with no tie and their shirt untucked
• Driving, just to drive
• The feeling you get when you have that special someone in your life
• Trying on prom dresses
• Fireworks (both kinds)
• Pictures
• Making movies
• Being crazy and hyper
• Pixisticks
• Snowboarding
• A good soccer game
• Manchester United
• Classical music
• Dancing
• Dates with friends
• Knowing that no matter what happens someone has my back
• Telling secrets
• Playing I secretly and straight up
• Missing someone with every fiber of your being (i also hate this)
• Hope (i also hate this)
• Learning something new
• Chocolate
• The way that guys just smell good
• The fact that guys hugs are just better than hugs from other girls
• Running around the soccer field barefoot, just to feel the grass
• Lightening storms
• Inside jokes
• Watching the sunset
• How mall pretzels make everything better
• The fact that he's coming back

I can think of more....but I'm going to go eat pizza now. You should be proud of me, this is my 2nd consecutive post! GO ERIN! lol

Life Update:Living life, and loving it all. I'm not letting the bad things get me down and I'm refusing to let the people that want me to fail get what they want.

Infinate x's and o's
~Erin Jo

:D Be proud of me!

So this weekend was St. George for State Debate! It was so much fun, but the miracle is that I finally managed to write a happy poem :D ready for this?

Love vs. hate
Good vs. great
The potential to be
The ability to see
Kisses in the rain
Ignoring the pain
Loving your life
With trials and strife
Take a chance and shed a tear
In memory or fear
Love doesn't last
And crushes with pass
In darkness and in lonely hour
Revel and cherish in the power
Friends are the equivilent of life
Take a chance and live!

So it was kinda dark, but mostly happy. This is what I get when I start writing in the sun in St. George after getting virtually NO sleep. lol Erin was on drugs! St. George was fun, but I'm ready for choir tour! It's definitely time.... :D I love the world...and I have nothing to say but I just kinda felt the need to blog!

LOVE LOVE LOVE
~En

"I have acute (h)earing!"

What to do what to do? lol Highschool is so confusing I can't even handle it. It makes us laugh, it makes us cry, and we think its the worse part of our lives. But when we get old and decrepid we'll look back on these days with much fondness and reminice about "the good old days" Isn't life ironic? Well everyone knows about the events that have transpired this past week, and I'm not exactly sure what to say about them that hasn't already been said... All I'm going to say on the subject is that I'm glad everyone is getting along again. But this whole situation has really been making me think...about happiness. Happiness is all in the eyes of the beholder I guess. Everyone sees....or chooses not to see, happiness differently. It makes me think, how many smiles do I give everyday that are fake? How many laughs do I force? How many giggles do I push? Far too many as of late. I've been trying to act happy, thinking that if I act happy this entire thing will go away...Thinking that by acting happy....I will, infact, become happy. I was dillusionsal. But this whole thing with everyone being emo and all has made me take into account some things that I really didn't notice before, and I'm done being fake happy. I'm done with the fake smiles, I'm done with the fake laughs, and I'm done pretending to be happy so no one sees how bad I'm hurting. I'm not hurting anymore, and it's definitely time to smile. So this week my goal is to laugh like no one's watching, sing like no one's listening, live well, laugh much, and love often.

Something that my mom says we all need to take into account this week. "Life is too short to be unhappy." I love you all!