Pissed at the world

This is my formal letter of apology if I have at any time snapped at you in the last week. Finals are of the devil. I've basically been on the verge of tears all week, and I've been emotional, AND my 4.0 is on the line here because of one vindictive and utterly stupid theater teacher. I'm so stressed out right now, and to top all that off I have a big secret that I'll tell you all personally but it's not fit to print as it were. ALSO Jake. What can I say about Jake? Everything and nothing at the same time. He's the biggest cause of my stress, he's an arrogent prat, he's selfish, he's self centered, some days I'm not sure whether or not he gives a damn about me, he's a good kisser, he can be a total sweetheart, but I swear he gets some sort of vindictive pleasure out of pissing me off and breaking my heart. Because that's what he's doing, slowly but surely he's breaking my heart. And the sad thing is I'm not all that surpised. Ok now that I'm sorta done ranting (aka i'm to the point that i can just shut up and deal with the rest on my own.) I'm going to post a list of things that I bet you didn't know about me (and this excludes Britta because she knows most everything about me)

1. I'm really really really insecure.
2. My grades mean the world to me because they're all that i have.
3. I'm a romantic at heart.
4. My favorite types of books are fiction ones with happy endings.
5. My favorite food is italian.
6. I tell my mom everything.
7. Kris Powell was my first kiss.
8. Spiva was my kiss in the rain.
9. Jacob Ward was my kiss under the fireworks.
10. I love the logic in math even though I'm not very good at it.
11. School is one of my favorite things.
12. I have a really really hard time trusting people.
13. I've never actually read the dictionary.
14. I'm a poet but I really don't like people reading what I write.
15. My nickname used to be Tuft.
16. CSI is my favorite show.
17. I love murder mysteries.
18. I love to travel.
19. I hate living in Heber simply because I hate being discrimminated against.
20. Some people don't like me because I'm not Mormon.
21. When I'm sad I read Peter Pan
22. I never think I'm good enough for anyone.
23. I secretly want to find that one guy who will treat me like a princess.
24. Secretly I don't care whether it's the U or the Y, I only pick the U to cause tension.
25. I love to argue.
26. I hate to cry, it makes me feel weak.
27. Weakness is my greatest fear.
28. I feel like I always have to be the strong one.
29. If you ever need a ride call me. I'll come pick you up.
30. I sometimes wonder if I have a stress related mental disorder because I stress so much.

Ok well now that i've basically bared my soul. It's your turn

~En