And the moral of this story is....

Hello loves. I have a life lesson we should all learn from.
Once upon a time there was a silly little girl named Erin. One day she decided to go out side and lay out in her swim suit for a few min to get some sun. After a hose fight and sprinting down the street to get out of the line of fire... Then lying in the sun to dry off.... Erin looked at the clock and noticed that she had been out there two full hours. Later she noticed she was absolutely fried as far as sun burns go and it hurt. Moral of the story: Wear sun screen no matter what.

Then End :D

New Erin. This one's emotional.

I'm not sure why but today I seem to be in a melonchally mood... It could be the fact that I'm a hormonal, emotional teenage girls craving chocolate... Or it could be the fact that everything is happening so fast. The world is swirling around me in a vortex and the people that once came to me for help and for someone to talk to no longer need me. I feel myself becoming closer to people who make my life happy... but farther from the ones that made my life meaningful. Lately I've been thinking, feeling the pressures put on by the world and escaping from it all by to go get enano and go to my sitting spot so I can unload my thoughts onto him. Another thing that I've been thinking about is Lakey. (Haha Don't freak out... I'm putting my honest thoughts down here) It's been nearly a year since the two of us went on our first date and for some reason it's been bothering me lately. I'll be taking someone home and I'll drive past a certain spot or someone will same something innocently and I'll be swept away in a memory from long ago. My mom says when this happens you can almost see what i'm thinking right on my face and it's slightly unnerving. Knowing that my thoughts aren't being kept privately shushed inside my head. So my thoughts are this on my ex: He's so different than he was, and I was stupid not to listen to everyone. Though I know that I had fun and learned enough about myself that if I had to make the choice again knowing what I know now, I'd still date him. (THEN NOT NOW) But I'm not gonna lie...at concert in the park, for the first time in about 5-ish months, I actually missed Jake. And it's not that I miss "us" I just miss being his friend and being able to tell him anything in the world. And this is the guy I swore never to let close to my heart again. Yet I definitely still miss him. Ironic. Another aspect of my life I've been contemplating is the crappy-ness of dating in a small town. Everyone knows everyone and no matter who you like someone is going to end up getting hurt, people are going to date eachothers ex's, and people are going to be upset over who likes who. My parting words are these: We're not in middle school anymore, you're allowed to like the same guy as someone else...You're are allowed to have more than one best friend...and you're allowed to be yourself. Your true friends are the ones that will let you do what makes you happy and love you for it anyways, even if they get hurt in the process. Now dont go recklessly destroying lives, but we all need to understand that, as cliche as it sounds, boys (or girls) are not worth your friendships. Stick together.

"If there's a prize for rotten judgement...."

"If there's a prize for rotten judgement, I guess I've already won that. No man is worth the aggravation.....That's ancient history. Been there, done that."

Story of my life, eh? This is my formal apology for all my cranky-ness lately guys. If you all knew the whole story I might be more forgiven...but each of you only know a small part of the big picture (even if you think you know the whole thing, you really dont.). So I apologize again for my being a horrible person lately, and ask you to bare with me for a bit longer...Things are clearing up and I'm begining to handle everything lots better (ON MY OWN! YAY! I'm being independant again!)
It is officially summer and I'm so glad, as expected the drama is begining to clear up and life is getting easier. I'm being placid and relaxed...and for me that's kind of a big thing. The summer is alight with promise and allure. Everyone can feel it and the electricity in the air from it makes me wonder exactly what this summer will bring. Everyone's growing up and with that 'new found maturity' (I personally think I'll be more immature this summer than last summer...but thats ok) comes new found responsibility. Lake days become more than just sitting at the beach or boating with our parents...Random trips to Park City loose their chaparones (HOLEEEEEEEE HOLRRRRRRRRRR)... Curfews become more iffy and talking to people until 4 am becomes a small thing... Cars play a big part and cell phones become permanently attached to everyones hands.... swim suits become more than pink one pieces with a frilly skirt.... and 'summer crush comes to mean more than an orange flavored drink we have when we're hot... BBQ's expand from just your family....and movie nights turn into actual dates...but one thing that will never ever change is how much we love eachother and how we'll always be here for eachother. No matter what. Sometimes some of us get cranky (and its not just me!), sometimes some of us become anti-social, sometimes some of us can't stand being around others, and sometimes we feel as though we'll never be able to live without them....but we'll always have eachother. Hannha, Jebby, Ty Ty, Bwiwwa, Besto, Norgan and Randalynn....... though we fight, scream, cry, ignore, hate, love, and laugh...together's what we'll always be. No matter what the summer brings... forever and always.

~En

P.S. The quote for the day comes from my great grandfather...he was a writer and this was the last thing in the world he wrote before he died: "There are many things to hold and behold in this wonderful rotten world" ~Norm Fuellenbach

Block Slacker = Erin

Ok I know I'm the biggest blog slack of all time....I mean come on it's been a full freaking month since I've blogged. But lately I'm not feeling to partial to sitting inside on the computer and blogging in my spare time...especially since lately my spare time sessions have been few and far between. Lame. lol So school's almost out...so much has happened this year I'm not sure where to begin really. I've made new friends, fallen out of touch with old ones, and gotten in touch with even older ones. I've grown up and everyone around me has too...It's insane to think what all of use were like this time last year, how naive we were...and yet how utterly happy to be so. Hannah says growing up is disappointment, but I dont know if that's true. I think it's one of those glass half empty or half full kind of things. Sure you get disappointed as childhood fantasies come to an end as you grow up, but so many new and beautiful things are introduced to us I dont think judgement can be passed. El cheapo was last weekend, and prom was two weeks before that. Both were insanely fun, in completely different ways and yet I wouldn't change any of it. Kasey and I had an amazing time at prom, our group was insane and the boys were the sweetest ever. They planned everything from pizza and a water fight to fillet mignon and a hummer stretch limo. Prom was amazing, and I really did feel like a princess. If prom was amazing el cheapo was just as fabulous, but minus the formality. We all went to the DI and picked out our dates outfits...insanity. Lake ended up in a kilt, jeb as a jeanie, kelsey as a slut, enano in a sweater vest and besto in blue....oh wow. Ok so the remember when things....It's my turn.

Remember when:

• We ate pixisticks in my kitchen laughing?
• Things happened in days?
• We went to the hot pots and you were wearing your 'under-clothes'
• You cried cause things were changing to fast?
• You told me your biggest secret ever?
• We kissed on my couch just because we were both single and could?
• We re-visited emo lane because we had to get everything off our chests?
• When that song followed me around all summer?
• Dr. Greene?
• The My Humps dance?
• When we were going to make music videos?
• How the sound of his name makes me grin?
• The For Sale Sign?
• Kris hiding in the bushes?
• Writing our names on the playground?
• When we had our guitar lesson and I was so excited to learn?
• How crushed I was?
• How head over heels I was for him, even when I tried not to be?
• How I looked like Anastasia because I wanted him to take that second glance?
• "And then we'll wake up unconcious"
• 3 hand squeases? And 4 to reply?
• When you literally saved my life?
• How I used to go to your house and yell and scream and cry when I was frustrated?
• How many lives were ruined?
• How I shouldn't ever have cared because he lives "across the pond"
• How furious you make me because you don't think about the consequences and then you piss everyone off and can't figure out why we're so mad at you.
• When I FINALLY realized he was a hobag, and that I really was over him.
• When we joked about a 3-some
• When you were lying on a couch in my basement and I was lying on your stomache and you told me you loved me for the first time?
• I found out everything I never wanted to know about him?
• He told me I would be a good booty call?
• Seeing the dolphin when we were swimming?
• How nervous everyone was for choir?
• How disappointed I was that I didnt make it until he told me it was because my schedule was insane?
• Park hopping so we could talk?
• Me knowing exaclty what it means to be up that freaking early?
• Swim over-nighters and their insanity?
• Lake the tiger and enano bunny in the puppet show?

So this is it for now, I hope this will ease the blog nazi's and their endless rampage against blog slackers... ;) they know I love them :D I love you all!

~En

Crappiest blog ever

Twitterpated-mania = erin's life right now. everyone seems to be twitterpated. Even me, granted there are about 5 guys, but that's beside the point. lol I don't even know what to think anymore.....what to say? lol I'm not sure how to deal with anything...basically lets sum up:

Jake - Ok, on choir tour we were like best friends, we hung out, we flirted, we had fun. AND now that we're back... he won't give me the time of day. I should have expected it....but i didn't. Dang. lol Don't get me wrong, I don't like him again, but I definitely wanted him as a friend...well there went that idea. *shoots idea with an AK47*

Jacob - Ok, so. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH is all I have to say about that. Saw his senior picture today... can you say perm-a-grin? oh wow. That boy. Dang.

Randi and Berto - So cute. Unexpected. But definitely cute. lol

Britta and Lurpe - I'm so inlove with this couple I cannot even handle it. Lol they're so cute, and they're just fun to be around. Granted, at times I feel like the 3rd wheel, but I'll deal.

Grant - Texted me again last night. Oh wow. Bring back memories? I just dont even know....

K i'm sorry that this is the crappiest blog ever. but my thoughts are too jumbled to blog. maybe i'll blog later...when i've got everything all figured out.

What happens in Vegas...

So basically i'm sitting here in the holiday in typing to you guys from the business center in vegas. and let me tell you, this trip has been one interesting experience after another. i'm sitting here giggling just thinking about it. so here's how it's been..... on friday we drove to california...now there isn't any boy girl seating so i'm sitting in the seat behind jake and lurpe... basically i spent the first part of the drive tickling their necks....then the three of us watch tokyo drift... :D:D:D:D:D:D huzzah for fast cars. anyways after that lurpe went to sleep and jake and i stayed up and talked until about 3 am...we talked about everything and we really cleared the air between us. we resolved a lot of conflict and everything is good between us now...even though i have black mail on him...bwahahahahahahah. anyways so after we stayed up talking and watching the omen (scariest dang show ever! holy freaking crap its twisted) jake and i fell asleep at about 3 a.m. we arrived at the mcdonalds in cali where we were going to eat breakfast at about 5 am so jake and i went on about 2 hours of sleep each. but it was fun. so after everyone had eaten (except me....cause erin doesnt eat mcdonalds) we got ready basically in the parking lot of mcdonalds and it was hysterically funny now that i think about it. next we drove to disney land.....and what more can i say about that? IT'S DISNEY LAND! lol i love it. we (chaely, jake, lurpe, scott, sean, and forrest) met up with egil and his friend brian and we had a really good time...i dont remember much..other than a haze of tiredness and my knees hurt like ^&@#$*&@()#*$&*()@#$&#$ @*$@#@*(#$&(@*#$& but...yeah it was all good. so its time to go eat...and i'm actually hungry (but i've been up since 4 this time...5 utah time) anyways i'm coming home tonight and i miss you all!
infinite x's and o's
~Jo Cripple Face

L is for the way you look at me

An amazing list of things that I love, to match everyone elses:

• That feeling you get when you start swimming after you haven't swam in a long time.
• That feeling you get after you swim a hard work out.
• That feeling you get after your race.
• The feeling you get when you sing, the one where your voice just pours over the notes.
• The feeling you get when you debate.
• The feeling you get when you're on stage and you get a standing ovation.
• Getting lost in an amazing book
• Watching a good movie
• Summer
• Playing guitar
• Hugs!
• Kisses
• Dancing in the rain
• My friends
• Finishing each others sentences and then saying "get out of my head" lol
• Shooting stars
• Long walks
• Catching up with old friends
• Making new friends
• Writing anything and everything you could ever think
• Cuddling
• Gatorade
• My perfect subway sandwhich
• Eating everything with ranch
• Yelling the "best" insults at britta
• Hearing good things said about me
• People telling me that they believe in me
• Being there when my friends need help
• Cruises
• Scuba
• Water in general....its a calming thing for me
• The feeling of sand in your toes when you're at the beach
• The rush you feel on rollercoasters
• The fact that all guys look amazing in suit ties
• When guys wear a suit with no tie and their shirt untucked
• Driving, just to drive
• The feeling you get when you have that special someone in your life
• Trying on prom dresses
• Fireworks (both kinds)
• Pictures
• Making movies
• Being crazy and hyper
• Pixisticks
• Snowboarding
• A good soccer game
• Manchester United
• Classical music
• Dancing
• Dates with friends
• Knowing that no matter what happens someone has my back
• Telling secrets
• Playing I secretly and straight up
• Missing someone with every fiber of your being (i also hate this)
• Hope (i also hate this)
• Learning something new
• Chocolate
• The way that guys just smell good
• The fact that guys hugs are just better than hugs from other girls
• Running around the soccer field barefoot, just to feel the grass
• Lightening storms
• Inside jokes
• Watching the sunset
• How mall pretzels make everything better
• The fact that he's coming back

I can think of more....but I'm going to go eat pizza now. You should be proud of me, this is my 2nd consecutive post! GO ERIN! lol

Life Update:Living life, and loving it all. I'm not letting the bad things get me down and I'm refusing to let the people that want me to fail get what they want.

Infinate x's and o's
~Erin Jo