2007 Edition

Ok so it is time for the "Remember When" 2007 Edition...nice....

"Remember When"

We went to the Welcome Back Bonfire and I met you for the first time?

Remember how you were covered in Glow Sticks Gel?

Remember Reffing together?

Remember Seeing Step Up on our first date?

Remember our walk to talk to Rili and she asked if we were together...and you answered "almost"?

Remember Thanksgiving with your cousins?

Remember Tay Tay snorting powdered sugar?

Remember seeing the dolphins?

Remember meeting me at the air port?

Remember taking care of me on choir tour?

Remember talking until 3 am and getting up at 5?

Remember how much I cried and said I hated you but really never could?

Remember when we let him come between us?

Remember when we didnt?

Remember when we met at the swim meet?

Remember "It's my birthday"?

Remember trying to get to Jordan Landing and ending up really lost?

Remember when Jeb was the only one we weren't pissed at for getting us lost?

Remember the Miss Watch-ass Pagent?

Remember "Once I was a selfish fool who never understood, never looked inside myself but on the outside I looked good!"

Remember taking pictures in your room?

Remember the "Cleavage Shirt!"

Remember Les Miserables?

Remember drawing pictures of us all in my living room?

Remember watching CSI every Thursday religiously?

Remember me coming to get you at midnight and going on a drive just so we could scream?

Remember when I fell for him? Hard?

Remember when I showed you my secret spot?

Remember "Thats it. You're dead"

Remember "Hey girls who's that guy?"

Remember eating cake at exactly midnight while watching the meteor shower?

Remember meeting John Louis?

Remember taking me to the wedding?

Remember bathing together and sleeping together every night?

Remember how every night I fell asleep in your arms listening to the waves?

Remember when I ruined the movie ending for you?

Remember how many of us we managed to fit into the photo booth?

Remember meeting me for the first time and how I thought you were crazy?

Remember planning our 18 hour flight together?

Remember how we promised eachother forever...?

Remember how we haven't given up yet?

Remember how I love you and still haven't told you?

Remember when you slipped and told me that you loved me and then covered it up really fast and how i still dont know if you meant it?

Remember when we used to go to the lake every week?

Remember telling me how to wakeboard?

Remember idiot jousting?

Remember how I thought this summer was going to be epic..... it was.

xoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxox
~En

Thoughts from my head...

This is part of a letter I sent my youth director.... think about it.


So lately some of the problems have been thrown into light and impacted my life greatly.. and it's gotten me thinking about church. When things go wrong people tend to blame anything and everything but themselves, they use every little thing as an excuse not to go to church and every little bad thing that happens goes as a mark against God. It seems that in today's society that there is no room for spiritual belief, people want proof and cold hard facts. I've recently decided that the proof lies within yourself. That every beautiful thing, both good and bad, is proof that God exists and loves you if you choose to see it that way. God's love lies within all of us, we just have to make the choice to accept it. But whether or not someone chooses to accept it, and how one chooses to accept it doesn't deflect God's love from shining upone someone. Everyone has the potential to do great things, we just need to use our strengths, and the power of prayer is one thing we can count on.


So no matter if you're Baptist/Christian like Morgan-love, Catholic like Enano-bunny, Besto, and Randalynn, Lutheran like me, trying to discover what you believe like Britta and Lurpey, Agnostic like Egil, or Mormon like almost everyone else I know, we're all worshiping something out there, some sort of higher power. Have faith, no matter what happens, because it's when you lose faith that everything loses clarity.

All my love,
Erin-a-Jo aka Michelle Pickleface

Again....Block Slacker

So random note: Jacob's sitting behind me and he just told me that I need to be shot in the face. Ouch. I'm sorry I haven't blogged in so long, I'm a huge blog slacker and I accept that. It just seems that another summer has flown by. I blinked and missed it. Lame. I'm ridiculously happy to be back in school though. I love it alot. And I know I'm going to stress, and I know that I'm going to end up killing Sarah Jane, but it's ok. It's all going to be worth it. I really heart my classes and everything. It's fabulous. So I don't really know what to write, my life's been so hectic for so long that I don't even know what's going on anymore. It's insane. Everything's changing so fast, I feel like I'm caught up in a whirlwind and who the heck know's what type of Oz it's going to drop me in. But here's an update for all those whom I haven't talked to in so long.
Stud Gov: Hell. But I still love it lots! I'm having so much fun!
Debate: I'm really excited to get into teaching it. It's going to kick butt!
Boys: Aren't worth my time currently. They just distract me and end up lying to me and hurting me. So not worth it.
Girls Night: I still need the dates everyone can do it in the next month so I can see what days that one place is open for that one thing.
Friends: I miss you! I never see anyone! Save me from this perpetual downward spiral!
School: Ummm since when was it ok for teachers to give this much homework the first week of school? Lame.
Piano: I seem to have reached a wall... I'm stuck! I need a piano tutor!
Voice: hahah I haven't been able to sing well in ages. It sucks.
Family: Lake Powell trip went exceedingly well...Everyone is currently getting along nicely.
Job: I heart my job so much! We have so much fun!
Swimming: I MISS IT! Time to get in the pool!
So I don't actually know what else is in my life besides the afore mentioned things..... ummm if I'm forgetting anything let me know and I'll give you the 411. Just let me know! And I solemly promise that hence forth I'm going to try and make a contrite effort to blog lots more often. :D I love you all until the end of time!

Infinite x's and o's
Jo Crippleface aka Michelle Pickleface ;)

Blog!

Blog Blog Blog Blog Blog Little Bloggy blog. I am, for some reason, exceedingly happy to be blogging today. It could quite possibly be because I'm all kinds of sick of freaking macs and am enjoying being back on my little PC once again. Sorry to all my loyal fans for not being around lately...for some reason I have decided to fall off the face of the earth....Well I'm back now! For a little bit at least.... So that's nice...maybe. Ummm.... Lately three things have occupied my life, Swim (big surprise there...), Work (and freaking macs that hate my soul), and my books. I've been reading non-stop for about a week and it feels so nice. During the school year I had no time to read and never the energy but this summer I've fallen back in love with my books and their characters. Naturally I've been reading my "Erin Books" as Britta calls them. (Erin Books entail fantasy books with a heroine, magic, and usually a really good looking guy. But if it gets classified as a romance novel I won't read it, I'm predjudice :D)
So this week I've learned a lesson.... As much as you try to protect some people, everyone needs a chance to make their own mistakes. Now this lesson seems pretty basic, especially for someone like me who thrives off of their own independence, but I've been sheltering some people for a little too long. And as much as I want to protect them, its time to let them face reality.... (hahah i'm going to be such a pain in the ass mother someday) So I guess this is me lightening my protection up.... at least a little bit ;)
Another thing I've been thinking about recently is passion. Too often in our lives as teenagers do we let ourselves live life in motions... One habit after another, day in and day out, without really seeing the beauty in anything. Sometimes it takes a big event to wake us up from our stupor...and sometimes all it takes is a person walking into our lives. Every girl dreams of being swept off her feet, of that one fleeting moment that will be engrained into your brain where you know everthing in the world put together could not make you happier in that instant (too much grease! ;) ) And everyone wonders when exactly they'll meet their true love. Now if you ask people like Ms. Haslam she'll tell you that there's no such thing as love, that it's just your body preparing for sex.... if that's true then there's no such thing as emotional pain either...for what is pain? Electrical pulses from our brain telling us that we should continously feel like we've been punched in the stomache? Now no offense to Ms. Haslam but if you live you're life like that you'll end up a thirty something high school biology teacher engaged to The Buffalo Man merely because you want to reproduce... :D Everything in our lives is open to interpretation. How we see things is a direct result of the state of mind we choose to view them with. Good question: Is the glass half empty or half full. Better question: Why does it matter?


xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox

And the moral of this story is....

Hello loves. I have a life lesson we should all learn from.
Once upon a time there was a silly little girl named Erin. One day she decided to go out side and lay out in her swim suit for a few min to get some sun. After a hose fight and sprinting down the street to get out of the line of fire... Then lying in the sun to dry off.... Erin looked at the clock and noticed that she had been out there two full hours. Later she noticed she was absolutely fried as far as sun burns go and it hurt. Moral of the story: Wear sun screen no matter what.

Then End :D

New Erin. This one's emotional.

I'm not sure why but today I seem to be in a melonchally mood... It could be the fact that I'm a hormonal, emotional teenage girls craving chocolate... Or it could be the fact that everything is happening so fast. The world is swirling around me in a vortex and the people that once came to me for help and for someone to talk to no longer need me. I feel myself becoming closer to people who make my life happy... but farther from the ones that made my life meaningful. Lately I've been thinking, feeling the pressures put on by the world and escaping from it all by to go get enano and go to my sitting spot so I can unload my thoughts onto him. Another thing that I've been thinking about is Lakey. (Haha Don't freak out... I'm putting my honest thoughts down here) It's been nearly a year since the two of us went on our first date and for some reason it's been bothering me lately. I'll be taking someone home and I'll drive past a certain spot or someone will same something innocently and I'll be swept away in a memory from long ago. My mom says when this happens you can almost see what i'm thinking right on my face and it's slightly unnerving. Knowing that my thoughts aren't being kept privately shushed inside my head. So my thoughts are this on my ex: He's so different than he was, and I was stupid not to listen to everyone. Though I know that I had fun and learned enough about myself that if I had to make the choice again knowing what I know now, I'd still date him. (THEN NOT NOW) But I'm not gonna lie...at concert in the park, for the first time in about 5-ish months, I actually missed Jake. And it's not that I miss "us" I just miss being his friend and being able to tell him anything in the world. And this is the guy I swore never to let close to my heart again. Yet I definitely still miss him. Ironic. Another aspect of my life I've been contemplating is the crappy-ness of dating in a small town. Everyone knows everyone and no matter who you like someone is going to end up getting hurt, people are going to date eachothers ex's, and people are going to be upset over who likes who. My parting words are these: We're not in middle school anymore, you're allowed to like the same guy as someone else...You're are allowed to have more than one best friend...and you're allowed to be yourself. Your true friends are the ones that will let you do what makes you happy and love you for it anyways, even if they get hurt in the process. Now dont go recklessly destroying lives, but we all need to understand that, as cliche as it sounds, boys (or girls) are not worth your friendships. Stick together.

"If there's a prize for rotten judgement...."

"If there's a prize for rotten judgement, I guess I've already won that. No man is worth the aggravation.....That's ancient history. Been there, done that."

Story of my life, eh? This is my formal apology for all my cranky-ness lately guys. If you all knew the whole story I might be more forgiven...but each of you only know a small part of the big picture (even if you think you know the whole thing, you really dont.). So I apologize again for my being a horrible person lately, and ask you to bare with me for a bit longer...Things are clearing up and I'm begining to handle everything lots better (ON MY OWN! YAY! I'm being independant again!)
It is officially summer and I'm so glad, as expected the drama is begining to clear up and life is getting easier. I'm being placid and relaxed...and for me that's kind of a big thing. The summer is alight with promise and allure. Everyone can feel it and the electricity in the air from it makes me wonder exactly what this summer will bring. Everyone's growing up and with that 'new found maturity' (I personally think I'll be more immature this summer than last summer...but thats ok) comes new found responsibility. Lake days become more than just sitting at the beach or boating with our parents...Random trips to Park City loose their chaparones (HOLEEEEEEEE HOLRRRRRRRRRR)... Curfews become more iffy and talking to people until 4 am becomes a small thing... Cars play a big part and cell phones become permanently attached to everyones hands.... swim suits become more than pink one pieces with a frilly skirt.... and 'summer crush comes to mean more than an orange flavored drink we have when we're hot... BBQ's expand from just your family....and movie nights turn into actual dates...but one thing that will never ever change is how much we love eachother and how we'll always be here for eachother. No matter what. Sometimes some of us get cranky (and its not just me!), sometimes some of us become anti-social, sometimes some of us can't stand being around others, and sometimes we feel as though we'll never be able to live without them....but we'll always have eachother. Hannha, Jebby, Ty Ty, Bwiwwa, Besto, Norgan and Randalynn....... though we fight, scream, cry, ignore, hate, love, and laugh...together's what we'll always be. No matter what the summer brings... forever and always.

~En

P.S. The quote for the day comes from my great grandfather...he was a writer and this was the last thing in the world he wrote before he died: "There are many things to hold and behold in this wonderful rotten world" ~Norm Fuellenbach